Just noticed that I haven't changed my journal entry since November. Think that's a record for me.
It's been a long summer. June was very difficult on a personal level. My husband and I don't have children, so our dog was our child. He was the centre of our lives for almost 15 years. Watching him get sick and then pass away was tremendously painful. I lost a piece of myself with him. My husband also fell down the stairs carrying him just the day before that, destroying his ankle on his driving leg. We can easily say that was the worst week we've had in recent memory.
We've spent the last couple of months healing both physically and emotionally. Some of my passions and joys haven't come back. I still have no desire to play video games again. I thought I just needed a break from logging into an MMO nearly every day while I mourned, but the desire isn't returning. Originally it was motivated by guilt. I can't make up for the time I spent playing games instead of spending it with my loved ones once they've passed away. But now I'm just enjoying having my time as my own and caring for my husband as he slowly heals from his injury. I do feel bad for leaving people, especially my gaming partner, in the lurch, but this cruise director is taking some much needed personal time.
On the other hand, I've been finding fun again with my renders. Now that I'm not so focused on game and RP-related images, I'm just doing whatever comes to mind or falls out into an image. It's quite freeing and my muse is happy. I also hadn't intended to move fully to Daz Studio from Poser, but it seems to be what has happened.
I'd drafted up a couple of journals about my views, experiences, and opinions regarding Poser and Daz Studio, but they just turned into long rants that I'm sure no one wanted to read. Long story short, I'm having fun using all of the tools out there for a hobbyist. Studio, Iray, and Genesis 2 have just really clicked for me. I wanted new figures, Studio had the new figures, and so here we are.